It's just a phase, maybe? I don't know. When was the last time I was really happy?

Chrismas, some days before chrismas, I can't remeber. Yes, I siking into depression.

Since 2010 I feel and think different. Aking my self what I have reached in my life.

Nothing. In two years I become 20. I really wish I can turn back the time. I will change

a lot. Can't say what but I will take some different ways....

I hope you are doing well

sorry for the short post...

My World.

Follow me into my world.

This month I going to update my blog every second day. During my non-attendance

I realized how much I need you listeners and helping hands. I will nevermore leave this

blog so long alone.

Thank you.

Try to learn something about me – Part II

A day in the year 2004

Dear Diary,

how are you? I’m fine. Okay I’m not. I’m lying. I feel very sad. When did that stop? Will it ever stop?
While I am writing into you, my tears rolling down my cheeks. I know you don’t like the teardrops in my face but my tears are just falling like a waterfall. I’m not able to take it anymore. It is hard to hear every day that you are ugly. It make me more that sad. It’s very difficult to describe how I feel. You know that I never felt beautiful because of my pimples, my hair and my weight respectively my figure, okay I had lost more than 12kg but I’m not at my aim. They should stop saying that I’m ugly. I know that already. Looking into the mirror is not easy for me. To see a monster is awful.


[A translated copy of my diary - in the year 2004 ]

Help Haiti! - you can make a different!

Well, by now I'm sure you all know about the earthquake that happend in Haiti.

At the moment many aid agencies are in Haiti to provide the victims with food, water

and medicines. You can do your part to help too. Make a difference and donate to help

the humans in Haiti.

Here I listed some aid agencies:

USA:

http://yele.org/

http://www.redcross.org/

http://www.cnn.com/SPECIALS/2007/impact/

Texting Donation:

Red Cross: Text HAITI to 90999 ($10 donation)

UNICEF: Text UNICEF to 20222 ($10 donation)

Clinton Foundation: Text HAITI to 20222 ($10 donation)

Yéle Haiti: Text YELE to 501501 ($5 donation)

United Way: Text HAITI to 864833 ($5 donation)

Germany:

RTL:

http://www.rtl.de/cms/unterhaltung/spendenmarathon/aktuelles/hilfe-fuer-erdbebenopfer.html

uNICEF

http://www.unicef.de/

DRK:

http://www.drk.de/news/meldung/3100-zwischenbilanz-internationale-rotkreuzhilfe-in-haiti.html

source: http://www.cnn.com/SPECIALS/2007/impact/

and google.com / google.de

PS: I already donated 20€ = 28 US-Dollar

Try to learn something about me – Part I

Hello listeners and helping hands,

I'm back! I totally hope that you are doing well. Ok, I promised you on my last
post that you are going to find a special article here on my blog. You will. Here we go!

Have you ever gave your all and miserably failed at the end?
Fallen so deep, so deep that you can’t get up?
Do you ever feel like a piece of crap?
Surrounded by people you just don’t belong and no one understands you?
Have you ever understand the meaning of love?
Trusted a person blindly that you hold on to a pillow tight?
Have you ever sworn yourself to claim never this mountain again?
Somebody pinch you while you have a beautiful nightmare
Awoke in a beastly world where the divide between rich and poor is bigger than the sky?
The red sky is looking down and crying…
***

It should be mine. My lovely thing where I can write all my thoughts,
stick some great picture in it or just draw beautiful and funny images…
Oh it should be my thing. I wrote down
everything that comes to my mind. It was great. I loved it like my own child.
It was my child. This child knew everything about me. We laughed, cry, sing
and suffered together. It loved me and I loved it. We were a perfect team,
so in love like Bonnie and Clyde and just so strong like
a supernatural human. I was young and naïve, because I thought we were
going to be always together. But ya we were a perfect team, until that day
omes which changed everything.From the moment of you were no more
my baby, I lost all my feelings for you, couldn't trust you anymore, I couldn’t
even look at you, because somebody had opened you and read our secrets.
He read it.

My brother read my lovely diary…

A little break...

Sorry I haven't blogged in a while...

I'm sick and feeling very bad but I must have to go to school because I'm going to

write an exam on Thursday. Lying in bed and study thats my whole daily routine.

So for a few days I'm not goning to blog. On the 15.01.10 you will found here on my

blog a very special article. Have fun, stay strong and tuned!

in love, kate.

all my love, kate

goodbye 2009

hope you all had an amazing new year eve. I went to a friend for a couple of hour,

later me and my whole family were at my aunts house. It was very funny but the food sucks. At my aunties house is very hard to say no. You must eat. What did you do at the 31. December

2009? How was the food, your control and disciplin?

Here are some pictures I totally love today:

(I really love this pictures. It shows a lot of happiness and a very strong friendship)